Today is what I think of as a critical mass day. I often think about how we know moving towards something will eventually result in a change but we don't know the exact time that change takes place until after the fact. Like trying to calculate exactly when aw wave will break.
Today two things happened
First I did my standard Day 1 Lifting workout but found myself doing this strange run in place, half jumping jack, push up, squat, jump rope with no rope type of a thing. I'm sure The gym was particularly crowed today and I already look strange because I wear my big blue blockers over my glasses because I hate the florescent lights and it really does effect me as I've tried working out with out them and it's terrible. Anyway, I seemed to have this energy that I haven't had since I was in Indiana at the residential facility with the guys (see the addiction blog). I have had this dance jump thing happen the past few weeks but today I couldn't help it I just wanted to move. Trying to lift heavy is less fun. I have tried it and I end up hurt and I don't bulk up I feel much better doing these type of body weight exercises but I mix it up. I'm sure this is because I am so much lighter than I was before and that is from intermittent fasting. It is a fun feeling that went away slow and I forgot about it. I'm glad it's back. This gives me all the motivation to keep going.
I came home extra worn out and ate. I have been eating the same meals on a rotation for some time. Tonight I ate the same, slightly less than I used to as I have been cutting back but this time half way through my meal I was over come with.....well, being really full. All of a sudden, full like I'm gonna throw up. Full like not one more bite. This is not the norm for me. From the time I was small I just don't get full the way normal people do. I was able to eat or drink massive quantities and have learned to rely on my brain to stop and not my stomach. I knew in theory that my stomach would shrink over time but I was not expecting it to hit so hard. Part of me was happy as I went for my after diner walk trying not to be sick. I have put myself on this program, I have laid it all out on this site and I am so happy that it is working but also that my core struggles are slowly being removed. The struggle to get in touch with my body and not my mind. To let me body tell me when it is full. The reason intermittent fasting is so significant is because we need to eat. Learning discipline with a need makes things that are not needs but wants so much easier to manage by default.
Rob Alexander is on a journey to learn not just about health but everything else.
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