I spent the last 4+ years at a job that had me standing in the same place 8+ hours a day. I spent a lot of time looking at the clock and waiting for the day to be over. I went to the gym but it just didn't make me feel active. 

Many of you know that I recently moved. I made a move across the country from the central coast of California to the upper peninsula of Michigan. It was house and location for us. I wanted a house with land but not in the middle of nowhere. I got one with the option of wood heat. It also has a finished room in the basement, so my bedroom is underground. I plan on writing a blog on this soon, because it is key. I wanted to be in a place far away from major cities. I wanted to be near water. I wanted to be able to use the snow and cold as a natural EMF blocker, but also as a natural shield from increased pollution. Snow keeps weak people away.
 
I have been here a few weeks now. I went from being California poor to Michigan middle class, which is nice. I have been pleasantly surprised at how much summer sun there is here, but also just how wonderful the area is. There are huge green trees everywhere you look. It is far away from  protests or virus drama. I moved here sight unseen and I could not be more pleased. It was certainly a risk most aren't willing to take. I often meet people who want to start a new life but always have an excuse to prevent them from actually doing it. People with far more money and assets than me have told me how lucky I am to be so broke because it makes it easier to leave. I just smile and say "lucky me." 

I am now out of the culture of California, the culture that I never belonged in. But I am grateful for my time in California as I now have a real home to compare it to and contrast is king. I never would have been able to appreciate this life here without having had 10 years of California. I am in a little town that I haven't had to leave since everything I need is 2 minutes away. 

What does all this have to do with hard work? I have been working very hard getting everything ready for my family to get here next week. I had forgotten how it feels to work on my own home. How nice it is to be sore and tired at the end of the day. How much exercise and accomplishment is found in these uncomfortable, grueling tasks. 

The take away: Find something to do that is constructive and requires the use of your hands. I tend to think a lot and have spent a lot of time in my mind in the past, but it has been really interesting to use tasks as meditations. To see that our minds and bodies have evolved in a way that rewards us for doing things. No amount of sitting at a desk or work in the form of making phone calls will fill the basic need for the body to move but ideally to sync with the brain and move in a way that the mind and body are one focused system. The reward is not only accomplishment but health and an ability to do more tasks better. 

Another nice thing has been the decreased need to focus so much on food. I still eat high quality food that is minimally processed, but when I got here I was set on doing intermittent fasting and eating low carb. I wasn't expecting so much sunshine here. As I started working I found myself waking up in the middle of the night. My body was pulling for sugar and I know the feeling well. I started eating carbs and even drinking a protein shake before bed. This immediately allowed me to sleep through the night and recover. When you're activity increases your body is like a dry sponge and can suddenly soak up calories and food more quickly. When you are inactive, those same resources go unused and are stored making us feel fat and heavy. I was mowing my lawn this morning in the sunshine. I am excited about not having to create fake ways of tricking my body into thinking it is working out in nature, because now I can for real. 

Get active. Accomplish something. Something small. Start where ever you are. Don't think you can or should should do the big things if you haven't mastered the small things. There are no cheats in this life. You get what you give. 

I'm working on an Airbnb house that I will share soon if anyone ever wants to take a trip up to Ironwood. The house is furnished. There is a small flight from Chicago or Minneapolis to Ironwood which simplifies the travel to get here. I will share more on this in time. The big cities are in opposition to our evolutionary bodies. Health will become increasingly more difficult to attain in cities. Ironwood has very inexpensive homes, so if you are able, I suggest visiting and maybe getting a second home here to at least have a place escape to should things get bad wherever you are. 

It has been a long trip, both to my new home from California and to get to my 39th birthday. 

The above picture is of my new back yard. I have been very busy working on the house. Angela and Caden will be here in a few weeks and I want everything to be set. 

So much has happened. California feels a million miles away. I love it here; trees everywhere and a slower pace that makes all the chaos of the world seem like a TV show that I can turn on and off. I haven't really spent any time online. I can say after driving across the country that the cell towers are dispersed far and wide. Quite impressive really. I hope this blog changes with me. I want to start writing more practical posts and now that I'm a home owner again. It will be fun to show my own house hacks. 

There's so much nature here. I'm 39 today. So I'm pretty excited about spending my 40's in a new place with a new pace. Stay tuned and I'll start putting out some more content. Right now I am working on home projects and getting unpacked but my brain keeps clicking and I'll have more to say.

Thanks again for being part of my process.

What a strange time: where the many thousands of people who have been telling everyone to stay home to "save lives" and avoid groups is now leaving their homes to go out and protest in large groups. Those who protested COVID-19 restrictions were considered dangerous, irresponsible jerks but now racially charged protests are a-okay. I'm taking some time to reflect on my time in California. 

The image above shows the hero's journey. Any hero's journey essentially follows this sequence. As you can see, the circle is actually a Fibonacci spiral and in a sense the hero ends up in the same place he started, but on a higher plane. The journey always involves leaving the ordinary world to enter a strange new world, facing obstacles and then returning to the ordinary world with the treasure, often new knowledge, that could not have been learned at the starting point. 

I prefer to view my time in California in this same way, but instead of being on a path that spirals out to a higher plane my journey is a spiral inward to a deeper or more core plane. It would look like the image below.

I remember being in small town Indiana at a facility for at risk youth and it being the best time in my life. I also knew that I was about to turn 30 and that if I chose to stay I would have a very hard time being exposed to anything outside that wonderful little world in the middle of a corn field. 
At first I refused to go knowing that life would be much easier to stay. But I did end up leaving for California. I have many stories. The first day I got here a coworker at my new job told me the not for profit I was working for was a scam and in lots of legal trouble. Talk about the wind getting knocked out of my sails after a long cross country journey to what I thought was the promised land. 
He was right and I spent the next 6 months enduing many struggles in that situation. This led to botched dental work that resulted in metal poisoning and serious health issues. Getting involved with a fake guru. Going through a divorce filled with deception and infidelity. Having a best friend run off with  the business I had created. Almost dying from the health issues I was facing. Trying to escape to LA only to find myself back where I started but now on a friends couch. Countless attempts at relationships. Countless attempts at business success. Learning lessons the hard way such as - A partner with no ownership is a fool and never ever pay any attention to money that is coming tomorrow, instead work for a dollar today.
I have spent the past few years at a store learning patience and stability. 
I would like to think I have transcended so many of the obsticals walking around California on two legs. 
Now ten years after I came I am leaving. Returning to a small town, to a simple life  bringing with me a cat a beautiful woman and her child that I raise as my own. I have not made millions of dollars, I didn't become a famous self help guru. I didn't start a business that gained major success (at least not one I was able to keep) 
I did learn about the world, about myself. I am a much better person now than I was when I showed up. I don't have many relationships to show for it. No good byes even from those I thought to be closest to me. A long list of people who hate me, which is not a bad thing. I often tell people the type of people who hate you says as much or more about you than those who love you. Horrible people often do wrongs so if horrible people like you, you probably didn't right many wrongs. 

I have found the psychology of California to be a certain type of shallow self centered, fake way of being that comes from the idea that everything simply gets better over time. (I have written about this in great detail in the Psychology of Abundance Vs The Psychology of Scarcity Blog)  
Not every individual but places have personalities and Hollywood permeates the west coast. 
I am very excited to leave and to leave with special knowledge. Knowledge that the tangible wealth and prosperity that I wanted and so many in CA are chasing is empty. 

California is the siren, the woman in the red dress that seduces you and also enslaves you. The distraction from what really matters. The addiction. Much like a drug. It is so easy to get hooked on the easy life where the weather is perfect and the ocean is beautiful. It draws people in. I have learned that if I see a group of people in one place I know to go the other way. Control systems are simple, they wisely use their resources on high population areas and California has 40 million reasons for there to be a focus here.

As I leave ten years after I came and I reflect I can say I am happy for the experience. I am happy that I was sober for it as most of my ten years leading up to this journey were spent heavily intoxicated. I am glad for California the way a person is happy for the bully that beat him up. A beating often makes you stronger, it also removes your innocence. It doesn't make the bully right but it makes it easier to accept if you look at the lesson and not the horrible methods used to teach it. 

Of coarse everything that has happened had to happen because it did. 

I am now ready to start the next chapter. I was supposed to get married on the 31st of last month (covid put a stop to it). I am now learning how to be a father and a good husband as I have only been a bad one in the past. 
I am going to turn 40 next year and I hope the next journey takes me further inward to places of self awareness and in turn universal awareness that I could never get to in the chaos of a state so populated. I'm looking forward to a meditative season in the tress and snow.

When I leave I will not look back. I can honestly say I have no desire for the gold I came here for. If I had found it I would be stuck here digging for more. 
Instead I leave the casino having lost my rent money, gotten it back and happy to walk out on a winning streak but not wanting one dime more than what I came with. 

​I know people I would consider rich who genuinely think they are poor. I've seen people who where rich become poor and I've seen people get rich, others stay rich and get richer. All of it has a cost. I'm looking forward to a simple life. Having access to a small amount of money makes it very easy to make decisions. I no longer dream about a big house or being noticed by others. Even this blog is more of a journal than anything else. Instead of marketing it on social media I've make it password protected. If it got much bigger I would have to find some other way to keep it small, maybe charge a dollar or something. I have had people tell me how to write to appeal to more people, to attract more readers. Simplify the messages, dumb it down, they say. I'm not trying to make it bigger. The info is there, it has several layers. The content in some blogs goes so deep but other ideas are very basic. I have fun with it. This is a fun way for me to have a conversation  with myself. Every time someone tells me they have read it, I feel kind of naked as I never really expect anyone to read it. I ask "what did you like" as I long to discuss my ideas with others. I don't often get a response back, so to those that have read it, please reach out, I enjoy the conversation. I find it kind of funny to put out my best truth and have it get no attention and have some picture of a grumpy cat or something get all the comments. It makes me smile. 

California is a land of many contrasts. As this beautiful place faces 5G, riots, drought, and much more, it is all my cue to go. I have made a few allies here. There are a few people who have asked for nothing and given me things of real value, like memories and time. For those people I am grateful. San Luis Obispo a far cry from the place I came to ten years ago. But I bow to my teacher that still has the switch in its hand hoping I will turn back to give me one more wack before I go. My head will not turn to look back. I have outgrown this place and am not longer drawn to shiny things. Everything rusts. It becomes a drug, a high to chase. I'm living this life to learn and make sense of it all the best I can before I inevitably rust too. ​

​A golden cup that is empty, in the desert will never quench your thirst. I'm off to a place where there is no cup but water falls from the sky. ​