The Past And The Future

It's a grey morning today and I'm thinking about how funny it is thew way this seem to come back around. Last night before I fell asleep I remembered an old hard drive that I had from years ago that I pulled all the info off of a computer that died. I have no idea what made me think of this. It's been years and never once did I even give it a thought. So I got up and turned the light on I found this thing completely buried in an old box. 
Doing this blog and seeing my old writing has defiantly stirred up lots of old thoughts from my past life. I go through phases where I will chip away at the past and then put it back on the shelf until my emotional margin builds back up and I can give it another go. Trying to say good things to my parents and looking at who I was and also being interested to see who I will become. Anyway, after I found it I went to sleep and I slept so very deep and had very realistic dreams. The kind of dreams that are so realistic that when you wake up you try to sort out what was a dream and what were real memories from the past. It's about fall now which is my favorite season. I love cold nights and I sleep so much better.

This morning I plugged in the hard drive in and sure enough so much stuff I had completely forgotten about. I know that I have to take advantage of this look back phase in order to move forward so I'm looking at things with a different set of eyes. Trying to rewrite memories. I'm not sure what the future holds but it seems like good things are coming and it's important that I deal with as much of the past as I can before I move forward.