in search of honor

I believe that everything has pluses and minuses and it is our choice to decide which to focus on to make decisions. if you want to change focus on the negative aspects of your current situation to change it. If you want to satay the same focus on the positive aspects of your current situation. 
I use this in my head all day every day forcing myself to see both the positive and negative while never choosing one as right and wrong simply motivation to remain or change. I will say that I am in search of honor. This would be a self established higher ethic that is chosen by an individual not for external recognition but simply out of the recognition that there are no cheats in life. A liar is pushed the second they lie by loosing the ability to trust. this has nothing to do with the lie being discovered. In the same way the thief looses a hand the second they steal as they forever have to guard their own pocket. 
Thinking critically is wisdom, blindly accepting is ignorance. The two phases I hear often are ignorance is bliss and I'm only human. people are as human as they want to be. quality vs quantity, I have found my self loosing many "friends" because I refuse to encourage ignorant behavior that has built in punishments. I hold other to the same standard I hold myself. I have learned a tremendous amount of information the hard way and yes every time I learn it is a battle with my own desire to defend my pre existing belief. 
I work in the "alternative health industry"  an unregulated industry that is full of scammers who know that the things they are selling are of no real use but the more money a person makes from a thing the less the thing can be seen for what it really is. 
In the same way I no longer can hang out in a bar around alcohol as a sober person I can hang out with scammers or people with no honor. I struggle with this in my own life. How to be in this economic system and not get corrupted by it. 
The only thing worse than a wolf is a wolf in sheeps clothing. I know that all the things that bother me about the people around me exist within myself and the battle is raging there. Maybe this is to be human but I am walking a specific direction and refuse to let the temptation to sell out. honor is gold, a rare thing that takes work to mine. But the gold that is mind in the mind is the temple in between my temples. 
Find a way to value the unseen gold and the physical gold will loose its shine. This world isn't short on villains giving each one of us the constant opportunity to be a hero. of coarse i'm not talking about posting agree political stuff on facebook about the current political scene, i'm talking about realizing that the things that bother you the most are inside you.
(Find the little trump in you and deal with that before you stare at the big trump out side yourself complaining about what you can't control. I'm not for or against ta political party I'm just saying what I wish I could say to the very liberal people all around me that are far more unhappy than the one that is making them unhappy which from the outside looks like losing. I once heard it said you can't hate the devil to death he feeds on it.)

A search for honor in world full of fake. 

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