Patience

* Another day away from posting from my old writing. I am very much learning patience and it's paying off. This process involves self discipline but more importantly the understanding that I will never be "better off" just different. I give up who I am now for who I will become but this process never stops so there is no point in holding on also no point in trying to hurry it along. Things like intermittent fasting have taught me how to wait to eat but it has over flowed into the idea that is if I can wait to eat what can't I wait for. 
I am very close to big things but I'm patient even with the setbacks as this gives me more time in this phase and that's ok because this is a good phase. Plus I see the trends and am playing the slow game. There is a big difference between being bored while you wait and using the waiting time to learn and grow as much as possible to prepare for what is coming. The setbacks just mean I'm not ready for the next phase yet and this isn't bad just information that there is more to do here, now. Life is a series of phases within phases within phases, forever fractal. With this perspective there is no way to speed it up or slow it down, just watch and learn.