No Expectations Only Hope

​ So what can be done? (about addiction) The first thing, no matter where you are in this process, stop expecting things. Expectations are closed thoughts they say I expect to get a raise in pay today at my meeting with my boss. No raise, begin the grieving process. Switch to hoping and get rid of expecting. Hoping is open minded positivity. I hope I get a raise today and if you don't you can carry your hope into the next day. Hoping is starting the day with a perspective that says I am open to hoping for an infinite number of positive things that will come my way today. Hoping is unknown. I hope good things happen and then good things do come our way, things we would have missed if we would have had our expectation blinders on. Hope is in things didn't even know about when our day began. Expectations are limited to the knowledge we have at the beginning of the day and hope is in the recogni

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As I have started this new journey getting off my final drug, caffeine and finally being completely sober I have found the process to be difficult in a new way as there is nothing left to shift to. When I quit drinking I switched to smoking more, when I quit smoking I switched to caffeine more. Here I am 11 years after getting off alcohol and cigarettes still listening to this addictive wispier that says ....you need something....everyone else drinks coffee.....it's no big deal and yet I know that I have struggled with anxiety that is directly connected to my caffeine intake.  

I have no expectations for what life will be life after these withdraws are over. My hope is that I will be the truest version of myself yet.